(Cloud in the above pic...cool...)
i have watched 'final fantasy 7' for the 2nd time!
this time i wasnt eyeing on the cute guys.
[ok so mayb i did a little]
but i totally understand the plot rite now.
there is this stream on Earth that gives everything its life and all.
they call it 'Lifestream'.
then one day a calamity fell on Earth, they call it Jenova.
and blah blah blah.
so there is this guy by the name of Shinra.
and he found a way to tap energy from lifestream.
and he created a bunch of SOLDIERS to stop those who tried to stop him.
so it was a complicated plot.
well u have to watch it to find out.
but i would say it was SUPERB.
then shinra injected the jenova cells into these SOLDIERS.
then there was this particular SOLDIER who was better than the rest, Sephiroth.
[all the cool names ;p]
he started to hate the world and those who created him.
well so he took revenge by wanting to take over Earth.
blah blah so there were all the monsters and stuff.
then Cloud and his friends fought through the hard times.
then those with the jenova cells had the disease called geostigma.
but eventually everybody was cured.
it was a happy ending! =)
lol

***

sorry i suck at telling stories.
but it was a good show.
considering all the cute guys and cool graphics.
the background was so real.
final fantasy rocks cos they had reli cool graphics.
for those who love animated characters and computer graphics,
this is a highly recommended show.
=)

omg i have fallen for yet another animated character, Cloud.
typical shonen with blond hair and cool haircut.
in fact practically the whole show was packed with shonens.
lol *woot*
my mum rented 'final fantasy 7'
cool show.
difficult to understand though.
so i reckoned tt i might as well drool over the cute guys rather than trying hard to understand the plot.
wee~
i m going to wake up early tml morning to watch it for the 2nd time.
wahaha.
great show.
love the cute guys. yea.
hip hip hurray for the japanese artists who have drawn such wonderful characters.
[wish: only if they can just walk right out of the tv]
haha cute guys surrounding me. =)
claps claps, i wana draw like that too.
hmm...i shall try reli hard tml to understand the plot so i can blog it n share it w everybody on how the cute guy fought with the dreaded monster.
lol.
i must be nuts.
it actually hurts me to see Cloud getting hurt by the monster. O.o
lol. then agn he was so cool when he tried to killed the monster.
he sort of 'flew' with some help.
ppl kept popping out and flinging him up towards the sky.
cool stunt. [grins]
ga-ga.

meridian junior college shouldnt be by that name.
i call it 'mad-ridden' junior college.
all the mugging freaks. they have all turned mad.. Yeaks!
it is totally beneath me to say that i am part of the family.
cos i m not.
i cannot picture myself in the future of that dreadful institute.
the monstrousity intimidates me.
where did my burning rock go?
[made a wish]
it has yet to come true.
so the legend of shooting stars having the ability to grant wishes have become a myth.

***

life sucks.
life never was rox-ing anyway if u lived in the 21st century.
i seriously wouldn't mind if i had a time-machine and i could go back a few decades ago.
n still be sitting by the stream catching tadpoles or digging earthworms in the fields.
life wouldn't have been much more easier but at least it will a carefree life.
bleah.
who cares anyway if u r in 'mad-ridden',
the studying epidemic had long ago infected everybody.
perhaps only me, i had the vaccine.
so it turns out that i m not infected and i became stupid.
so i would say that it is a smart disease that affected everyone.
mind you, stupidity is not contagious.
my actively-working phosphobilipid layers has successfully kept the 'mad-ridden' virus away from me.
[assuming that it is a viral disease=>incurable]
Lo and behold...i m NOT infected. so i m NOT intelligent.
pure stupidity invades me.
ah...the stupidity virus is taking over my body.
so now i m immobilised.
wadeva. byebye.

hatred appears in every chapter of my book.
but vengeance does not.
as i will bring it away with me into the nether world.

***

karen--teardrop of the ocean
me--light in the night

***

[emptiness]

***

ask not my results.
ask not my feelings.
ask not my agony.
ask not my past.
ask not my present.
ask not my future.
ask not what i have.
because i have nothing.

***

someone told me that whenever we cry, our brain shrinks by 30%.
if that was true my brain would have been the size of a pea by now.
my brain cells die off faster than it could grow.
i am sorry brain.
i couldn't help it.
my head feels light n empty.
must have been the brain size.
i will not regret my decision.
i have tried.
now i know that it just wasn't the place for me.
i was never meant to be there.
i was so wrong to even think that i would excel in that place.
now i know, i am wrong.
so even if i stayed, i know my own limits.
i am sorry for feeling this way.
i am sorry for hating people who lied to me.
i wonder to myself, "why did i even bother when i was going to leave?"
today, i had the strongest urge ever to leave this wretched place.
the place that had ruined me.
the place that had taken away any hope that i ever had from me.
morale: (-ve) infinity

just read my email n my ct sent me tis.
=A SHORT STORY ON TEAMWORK=
'This is a story about a family of 4 people: Every Body, Some Body, Any Body and No Body. There was an important job to be done, and Every Body was asked to do it. Every Body was sure Some Body would do it. Any Body could have done it, but No Body did it. Some Body got angry with that, because it was Every Body's job. Every Body thought Any Body could do it, but No Body realised that Every Body wouldn't do it. In the end, Every Body blamed Some Body when No Body did what Any Body could have done.'

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ok so the story was somewhat meaningful.
but i was more interested in my version of the story.
it is called, 'A STORY ON SOMEBODY'
'so it all begins with the family of the same 4 people(not to be elaborated). There was this important job to be done and Every Body was suppose to do it. Every Body was sure Some Body will do it and Every Body was quite right about that. Eventually Some Body did do it because Every Body wasnt doing it. No Body could be bothered. Any Body could have done it but No Body did it. so Some Body did the job and Some Body blames Every Body for a job that No Body was bothered with.'
my story is way more interesting and factual. :)

now at sch...
open hse today.
feeling tired physically and mentally.
worst is that wr is still undone.
i stil have to stay up for wr tonight.
BAD news!!
darn.
sigh.
dun give excuses that you have commitments cos others have their own commitments as well.
dun tell me you r tired cos i m tired as well.
so DONT COMPLAIN.
so if the wr was sent to me before midnight,
it would have seemed early for whomever sent it.
but it's definitely late for whoever is editing it.
bloody hell dont give me the bullsit that compilation is a simple task.
COS IT IS NOT!
you do it if you think it's easy.
plus i have to do my own part n compile everyone's work.
and if you give me shit work i stay up even later to edit it.
sucks.
i have no obligations to do the compilation job.
it is not stated in any papers that a group leader must compile all the work.
so in order to save time n trouble of others, someone has to sacrifice.
dammit.
missed my anime just because i was too tired.
pw drains me. the sch drains me.
so even if nthg matters to me any more i will still have to perservere so that my incompetence wont affect others' results.
i am not going to be some stucked up, selfish freaks, who only thinks about themselves and thinking that they will be someone to cover their work for them.
listen up sucker!!
if you're not going to do it. then it is your loss.
dont blame me if your results are affected when the examiners question you.
and remember i have the ability to determine YOUR results because i can mark you down when it comes to assessment of group members.
ha. so what even you r able to assess the group leader? so what even if you r able to determine MY grades?
as if i would care.
because at least i know i've done my part n more.
n i m not going against my conscience. so dont try to give me bullshit.
i'll throw it back at your face.
in a bad mood now.
feeling tired and broke.
think i shall go work during the hols.
lol i cant believe i'm actually giving up the chance of going to south africa for the pitiful cash.
but i m pitiful and i need the cash.
~SHUT UP!

BLOODY HELL!!
stayed up all night to do wr.
curse the teacher who marked my wr if he were to say it's lousy.
curse whoever did not send me their part or sent me a piece of shit work.
making me suffer like that.
did not sleep a wink.
i m one pissed and angry girl.
dont mess with me today or you r so DEAD.
man...i should go claim credits for the work done.
how frustrating.
argh.