lost n alone??
sigh...that's wad becoming of me.
feeling v depressed.
evrything so depressing.
pri sch life was fun.
so was sec sch life.
thot i could adapt to jc life but i realise i cant.
evrything seems so superficial.
frens r no longer frens.
buddies r no longer buddies.
wad is becoming to tis place??!
during pae evrything was new yet i stil had fun
lost n no one to turn to.
nvr once had i felt the loneliness i m feeling now.
[prayers]
last sat i went to attend caron's church session abt 'y r we here for?'
i came to realise many things r not as simple as it seems even the people ard u.
i felt comforted by ron's presence although there was some awkward-ness cos i was with all her other church frens.
i miss 06s303 but we got separated during jae.
sigh.
things will nvr remain the same.
esp beautiful things.
"hao hua bu chang kai, hao jing bu chang zai"
tis is a chi idiom referring to short-lived happiness.
tis SO describes wad i m in now.

actually does blogging reli help relieve depression?
i doubt so.
it's just adding on to mine.
i m just here to make known my life to the public.
which it's not an exact remedy to depression.
haiz.
perhaps tis is my best alternative since there is no one i can reli talk to abt.
shuning is here.
so guai she wan to do her hw.
guess i shud stop here n pei her.
:)
afterall she's some1 that i oso loved.
lol
seek comfort from her.
wahaha. =>so R(A)
buahbuah

hihi. blog 2nd time 2day liao. sigh
suddenly i v depressed.
or shud i say i have been v depressed for the past few days.
start to have the ahs-sick(word derived from home-sick)
miss evry1 there
sobs...
ydae went hm w angela.it's like so long nvr c her liao although she oso in mjc. =.=
but we saw each other then we like siao cha bo.
huGGs.
love her so much. she loves me too. lol
then we start to remisnise the old days.
miss evry1 n evryting in ahs.
then i c sn n ah tan blog.
both got say miss jx.
i nvr say, dun mean i dun miss.
act i oso miss her alot.
but stil got contact thru sms. :)
got sms her good night msges de lor.
who ask her la go tjc lor
now nobody there pei her. ;p
[meanie]
haiz.
is like now in mjc so diff from ahs.
in ahs i oso v lethargic.
but here even worse.
[kill me]
ppl here r so different.
even angela tinks so.
she tinks ahs ppl r more sincere(not saying that non-ahs r not)
just that we miss the environment.
sigh...
miss mr chan n the way he teaches math
(lol in mjc oso got imposter mr chan, only that tis 1 got more hair)
wahaha
act i v depressed cos is like i suddenly feel that i m distancing from evry1 else.
esp my frens.
perhaps the fault lies w me.
but if u dun say how i noe lor??!
at least tell me.
dun say a thing doesnt mean i will definitely understand.
??!!
u nvr try to tell me how u noe i wouldnt wan to listen.
keeping evrything to urself doesnt mean u wun hurt anybody.
dun u understand???
i can feel it stil.
makes me hurt more.
heart-broken.
(pain is ripping me apart)
tears...
too depressed le.
i try to act as if all is fine
but u just makes it so obvious.
it's starting to scare.
u r starting to scare me.
tied to shun away from u.
avoid talking or even visual contact but it doesnt seem to work.
stil feel the agony inside.
SAVE ME!!
or at least let me know wad u wan...sigh...

tml got taf. my gosh it's tough.
on tue went for taf. so hiong.
ran total 6 rounds,
did 50 half-squats,
60 crunches,
40 push-ups...
all the half an hour!!!
golly...almost fainted during the assembly.
felt like vomiting.
too much blood being transported to the muscle n no blood to the brain.
went to the toilet i kana shock
face so pale sia.
sian tml got taf.
good luck to me.
yawnzz..very tired.
..zZzZZzz...

hi people..
manage to find ur way to my blog.
wahaha
i tink i blog v pretty
but a bit gay
wadeva
haben put tagboard yet
so bear with it people.
BEAR(castor) with it
sorry..
laming
if not nthg to write
sn is crazy
over the other com talking abt mr sung
got lotsa chrisma lor.
lol
17:21
gotta go hm
stil at sch library
hehex
bb

heyhey...
today yanhong bdae so now at librry passing time
omg!!
1st time in a million yrs since the last time i updated my blog.
but who cares la.
(cos i dun)=>lame kia
sian now,
tick tock tick tock...
wait for time to come then go happy bdae!!
then go hm liao lor
so excited cos so long nvr c ah tow n ah cai liao
miss them so so SO much
lub me too...k tata
me a.k.a senior member of ah(asshole) family
wahaha...