the year is coming to an end!! the good news is...i have found a job. =)

*pats on me shoulder, mate*(==> trying to get myself used to the aussie slang. so i won't b an outcast should there be a need when i have to go to an aussie uni)

***

i have always been a free-thinker. i respect all religions but i have yet to put total faith in any yet. Christianity is one of the few religions that overwhelms me. i have been to churches since young. it was definitely an eye-opener on my first visit to a church(i was in pri4). up till this day, every visit to the church has never failed to amaze me.

the immensity of faith placed by the followers on God is so great that it can be sometimes very bewildering and very overwhelming. i do not doubt the existence of God, neither do i have strong faith in Him.

today is the 4th service i have been to in my entire life. it is the first time, however, that i am attending service at ron's church. it was a youth service so it wasn't boring at all.(i can assure you on that ;D) attended an adult service before and sorry to say, i almost dozed off. >.<

everyone started off with singing songs. songs dedicated to to God. harmonious it may be, but at a particular verse, i was totally dumbfounded by the scene before me.

"there is no higher calling,"

"no greater honour,"

"than to bow and kneel,"

"before the throne."

(i think it went something like that, sorry if i get it wrong)

at this particular verse, a few people around me and a singer on stage knelt down immediately, with their heads buried between their knees. (where can you ever find such faith???)

even ron knelt down when we sang this verse for the 3rd time. o.O

it maybe just a song to me, a song written to praise the Lord. but to His followers it was more than a song, it was a connection, a bond.

i wasn't singing because the songs were very new to me. and i wasn't quite sure about myself at one point of the time when everyone else was singing. i felt like i was going to cry. i wasn't sure if it was the workings of God but i just felt really lonely, despite the hall of singing followers. (was i actually touched by their faith??)

actually, this isn't the 1st time i'm witnessing such events. no big fuss actually. there was once when ron invited me and sus to FOP(FestivalOfPraise). an annual event held at the indoor stadium for Christians to come together to celebrate their religion. the enthusiasm bursting from within and that passion for Lord are really overwhelming(sorry for the lack of vocabulary but that is the best word to describe how i felt).

at the youth service today, someone was sharing her experience with God, how God had made an impact in her life. to be frank, my belief in the existence of God started off very long ago. (i think it was during pri5 or 6) i experienced God for the first time in my life. it was during a mid-year exam. mathematics, to be exact. during those times, completing a paper in the given time was a little tough. i was rushing. but it was nothing compared to pressure i was facing from the blanks that were constantly appearing in my papers. i did not know how to do most of the problem sums. (almost had a nervous breakdown)

i prayed and He answered. i scored 98/100.

***

dedicated to ron: it is not that i don't believe. it's just that i'm not ready.

haa. previously i was talking about having to have found a job.

well..guess what??! i'm gonna quit even b4 i even start. o.O

i went down for training for 2days already.

and it's really bugging me.

the way their system works, which they say they adopt network marketing.

(a.k.a pyramid sales??)

after much explanation, they say it wasn't because i need not invest any money before having to join their company.

but seems to me, it is still nevertheless of much similarity. =.=

so i thought that I AM SO NOT GOING BACK.

(it's not gonna take much determination or consideration to decide that i want to quit)

all because i don't highly admire their way of working.

to be frank, network marketing is being taught in Harvard University in the Business course. so by logical sense, it(network marketing) should be very safe.

***

pardon me for my ignorance, but network marketing to me is still...people at the lowest rank in the hierarchy will have to slog their guts out for people at the topmost positions.

of course, that doesn't mean that the "bosses" don't have to work at all. but their earnings solely belongs to them while the poor people at the bottom will have to give a share of their pie to the ones at the top. (most unfair, i would say)

yesterday my father had a long chat with me(more than 2hrs*sleeps*). he was explaining why i shouldn't be taking up this (so-called) job opportunity.

***

one major concern was as to why was it possible for all ranks in the hierarchy to be able to have a share of the pie when a deal is closed.

this is largely due to the fact that the products are priced at the most exorbitant prices, so eventually everybody in the company gets to get the pie! =) simply known as commission fees.

in order to get higher commission fees, we will try to recruit in more newbies. so that we can feast upon of their profits. in this marketing tactic, it will be most profitable for the ones in the business but a major scam to the consumers.

in order to earn an(i did not make any grammer mistake here, "an" should be used when the adjective/noun/adverb starts with A,E,I,O,U and H) honest income, i have decided to break all ties with the company. >.<

so now i'm still very much unemployed. xD

***

an additional point to the "an" thing. i'll give an example.

for instance, you would say, "an hour" instead of, "a hour".

get my point? lol. (don't mind me, i'm just laming around)

hello to the WORLD!

it has been long but the wait was worthwhile. >.<

the past 2 yrs were the worst ever of my schooling life.

treacherous.

almost fell into the pit of depression until the knight in shining armor came to my rescue.

(lol...no knight la. got Mr.Ng though xD)

1st man other than my lao-pei to c me cry so many times.

very kind of him. =)

thx to him n all my lovely babes who helped me through.

love them to itsy-bitsy- teeny-weeny bits.

(big huGGs)

***

refreshed~

i smell freedom! n i m a tears-no-more kinda girl.

*punchpunch*

***

it has been 15days since the Alev r over.

thank God. =)

(Praise the Lord)

have been real bz since the As r over.

went out to look for jobs.

some company called me up alr.

(hot stuff leh) ;D

but i'll only b available aft i come back from my trip.

will blog agn aft tt.

(short n sweet)

*smack*

hi...
if anyone is wondering where i had gone...
i was actually busy working and spending the money that i had worked so hard for away.
bought a top(tank top w a gingerbread man).
bought a bag(puma---again!!).
bought another top but is sort of long n is purple.
bought a bubble skirt n leggings(or was it leggies??) to go w the skirt.
searching for my new shoes.
resorted to having to go online shopping now.

***

how to be a shoppaholic...
LESSON 1:
-shop til ur feet kills u n til they swell up to 1 size larger than ur usual shoe size.
for that u wld have succeeded in making sure that u dont miss a sopt in the mall u're in.

LESSON 2:
-dont ever(i mean NEVER!!) buy something that u fancy in the 1st shop u enter.
if u r some1 lidat. i'm sorry but u've failed to b a shoppaholic.

LESSON 3:
-always shop as if the cash in ur pocket never ends. =)
that wld have been an excellent way to make up to urself for the past yrs good behaviour.

so dont be shy!! pick up ur wallet/purse today n shop away like there's no tomorrow!!

now working, so my life currently revolves ard ntuc.
wahaha.
must admit that i m a person who is stingy with my smiles.
com'on la!! not as if smiling will kill me.
but i thot i smiled quite a lot today.
dont know why. =.=
well it's a good thing rite??

***

haha but anyway, here i m w all my complaints of the week.
ntuc is definitely not a place for ppl who r afraid of heights.
i was supposed to be a cashier but i owaes get called away to do random jobs.
i m the cashier+storehand+admin worker
hehex. storehand is one who unpacks the goods and place them on the shelves.
n is definitely not a job for those who have a phobia of heights.
so my supervisor asked me to get a ladder to climb to the top shelf to bring the boxes down.
i totally freaked out.
there were 4 steps on the ladder, i was on the 1st 1 n i felt like a mile away from the grd.
[lol exaggeration]
but it reli feels scary. haha.
something tt i wld like to suggest wld b placing the counters further into the store.
bcos...the air-conditioning is right above my head.
it blows...continously. if i switched it off. i wld feel like a roasting pig.
so my hair gets messy. =.=
the air keeps blowing at max rate n my hair becomes flat.
[ugly sai]
n i dun get insured for messy hair.
in fact i dun get insured for anything tt i risked to do at ntuc. lol.
not even climbing to the top shelf on the unreliable-looking ladder. :x

***

hmm...wad i m abt to say is not fabricated nor is it my personal opinion.
there has been ppl who kept telling me i look like certain ppl.
the most common ones are:

-olinda cho, from last season's Singapore Idol.
[omg do i seriously look like her?? other than the short hair i seriously dun think we have anything else in common, as in facially. Shud i b feeling flattered now?? XD]

-???, sorry cant rmb the name but she was the 1 who won the 2nd gold medal in the DOHA games for sg. she's the 50m butterfly style swimmer. considering tt sg only won 3 gold medals, it is a big acheivement. =)
[hmm...kk so all short hair women look like me. =.= thx for the compliment. but i'm not as good a swimmer as she is. lol. i'm flattered.]

disclaimer: i didn't say tt i actually look like them. but ppl whom i m exposed to, said i looked like them. ??!!

hoi...
calling out to all good ppl out there.
those who crave to have retail therapy but r too broke to do anything abt it.
pls...heed my advice.
[work for it]
as in literally.
cash dont come falling from skies
or grow from trees,
and money definitely dont keep flowing from ur parents' wallets.
cos they worked equally hard for it.

***

today is officially my 3rd day of work.
working as a cashier as ntuc agn.
not tt i wan to.
but...[nvm]
my boss told me yday.

***

[convo w boss]

boss: u nxt yr 2nd yr rite?
boss: aft tt go uni got v long break hor?
boss: uni april then start lessons rite?
me: (nods)
boss: then when u a lev finish u come back here n work la! (all smiles)
me: (raise eyebrows. stunned)
me: err...orh. (too shocked for words)

***

not tt i'm flattered but i just din wan to work at ntuc anymore.
lol. pay is lousy n i have to put on the 'all-smiles' face to those disgusting customers.
i have to follow the GST rule
which meant Greet Smile Thankyou.
although i do admit tt my supervisors n colleages were v nice to me.
but just the thot of having to smile at ppl whom u reli feel like slapping makes me uneasy.
as least if i worked as a data entry clerk i wldnt have to feel so uncomfortable.
as least the computer wun grumble or even talk back at me.
at most the only way of showing displeasure wld be tt it hang on me.
but i wldnt mind tt.
haha.

***

just 3days of work n i'm facing hell loads of problems.
i dont know which is worst?

1. 9 voids in 3days, which will leave a bad record even tho it is clearly not my fault

or

2. a man who is a do-do head, comes round asking for discounts on a non-discounted item. eventually leaving me with 1 void receipt. (clearly the dettol handwash500ml cost $4.90, a newspaper cutting showed that 2 for $5.15 and tt is for the 400ml 1 which our branch does not carry. so he came to me w 2 btles of 500ml handwash and asked for the $5.15 price. even a retard wld noe that it wldnt have been so cheap. when 1 is like alr $4.90!! how can u expect 2 to be only a freaking cheap $5.15??! [flabbergasted] unless the handwash is some brandless shit n is near its expiry n when u use it only 1% of the bacteria gets killed. only then wld 2 btles of handwash cost some cheap!! RETARD)

or

3. an old man who comes in w a cigarette in hand (me being v sensitive to cigarette smoke, immediately told him politely that tis was a non-smoking area). the old man who was clearly in the wrg stil reasoned w me. =.= he was even trying to hide the cigarette behind him while queueing. but my highly-sensitive nose detected the smoke, which was so choking!! i told him tt he was not allowed to smoke here but he told that he came to pay for the bread n smoking was a diff issue. come-on la mister!! who u trying to kid sia?? obviously it was a diff matter n he was not allowed to bring a lighted stinking stick into tis vicinity. but wadeva. cldnt be bothered to reason w him too much. so i hurriedly scanned his item, cash out n he went off, ntuc bag in 1 hand, cigarette in another.

or

4. met a mad woman who was got pissed for no rhyme or reason. -.- well...it went like tt...tis angmoh-speaking chinese woman came to the counter w 5 btles of carbonated water, then she said she wanted 6 so she went off to get another btle. me, being a v nice n professional cashier did not wan to let the rest of the queue wait so i did the nxt person 1st. then the woman came back w her 6th btle of carbo water she saw tt i let the nxt person go 1st so she got pissed. she slammed the btle on the counter table n she scolded 'shit'. she folded her arms n was looking v bad. when it was her turn she was v displeased w me. it wasnt my attitude tt made her blew her top. it was her problem. tt's y i dun like working in the service line. cos no matter how a costomer scold u or even if u noe tt obviously it wasnt my fault u still have to GST(Greet Smile Thankyou). she threw the money at the table n waited while i scanned her items. i almost punched n screamed at her. but i tolerated. bcos if i had cont w my positive attitude, other costomers wld have regarded her as a siao cha bo(mad woman in hokkien) n i wld be the nice n polite cashier. so i just cont n then she left. wad a biatch.

***

sometimes some costomers r just annoying.
they get cocky when they have a bit of money.
pls la.
ben siao jie bu shi qiong de lor. (it means tt i m not poor in chi)
i'm a rich man's kid. lol. jkjk.
haha as in not poor enuf to be so desparate for the cashier job.
i m not obliged to work there. only bcos my supervisor asked me back.
so here i m! stuck.
at 1st i worked there cos i thot it wld be nice to earn my 1st dollar all by myself.
haha. it feels good to have cash in ur pocket.
but during last yr chi new yr(peak period), i had a v bad experience which made me cry.
haha. so when the mad woman came to me, i thot "sian it's de'javu".
nvm. i will be there for 1mth only. till the end of dec. =)
haa. i will not be short of cash during nxt yr. yeah. hurrays.

***

will be posting my pics taken in south afica v soon. :)

now at the airport.
waiting to board the plane.
will be boarding at 1am.
current spot: a random place with FREE internet service.
haha.
yay...
pure randomness.
stil feeling v awake.
will be on the plane for 13hrs.
woo~
[sick]
gtg.
mum's waiting.
byebye.
=)