STOP PRESSURIZING ME!!
it's already demoralizing to know that the local uni doesn't want me. now that i want to apply for aust uni, i know nuts abt their entry requirements. the point sustem in which they use to calculate the Alev subjects is so very foreign to me. ("Advanced Subsidary" means H1??? can somebody enlighten me?)

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my mum announces to the whole world that i'm going overseas and that the local uni have rejected me.(thank you very much but i don't need more salt in my wound.)
she know nuts about the application and she kept pushing me, asking me to hurry. application for the 2nd intake has closed already. so what the heck are you pushing me for!!!?? i don't wish to apply abruptly for any architectural course i see. it's not as easy as it seems. it's not as vivid as the application in local unis. they offer courses like "bachelor of engineering(architectural)", "bachelor of architecture(arts)", the normal bachelor of architecture that i'm familiar with and a hell load of other architectural courses.
so what am i suppose to pick?? i don't want to waste money applying for a foreign architectural course and end up wasting money and time and eventually my future.

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i tried engaging help from people i know who have relatives or friends who studied there and also asked my tutors from mjc regarding the entry requirements. all these take time and she just don't understand. she thinks i'm wasting time. she anxious. i'm pressurized. she asked my dad to "帮我". he knows nuts as well. so how can he possibly "帮我" in the application. other than supporting me financially there's nothing else my dad or my mum can possibly "帮我".

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i'm not asking too much. all i ask for is that they let me do the application in peace. that would be of major help. you have no idea the turmoil i'm undergoing. the pain of rejection. the pain of my parents not being able to understand. the sense of lost that i'm feeling right now.