went to mtps yday.
lol i cried like nobody's business in front of the teachers n my pa.
my pa was kinda used to seeing me cry so he was ok.
but i tink i freaked the teachers out a bit.
lol ng even thot tt my home had the case of child-abusal or something.
or perhaps even violence at hm.
he asked tt if i felt uncomfortable talking to my pa can go look for him.
=.=
lol
com'on not evrybody comes from a broken family tt i would have to seek comfort from the teachers.
i din cry cos my pa pressurized me or anything.
it's just tt i got reli fed when ng n goh kept asking the same qns.
n it's not as if they ask it wld help me in anyway.
they kept asking how they can help or how i was gonna manage my time.
stuff lidat.
n that was so lame.
n the lamest thing was they say i look reli tired in sch.
they asked me to slp early but at the same time they wan me to complete my tutorials.
[contradiction]
i cant slp unless i finish my work.
n normally i cant finish my work.
heavy workload.
n my pa was so funny cos he kept saying that it cld have been the sch's prob or the teachers' prob tt the students were faring badly.
lol.
my pa even ask ng a qn tt left ng dumb-founded.
[hilarious]
not much of a help actually, just sat there n let my tears roll.
while my pa kept defending me.
then it was like i got reli fed up w all the bullshit that the teachers were saying bcos i dun tink tt aft the session it wld make my life any beta.
waste of time.
i wld rather stay hm n revise rather than sitting there n allow myself to dehydrate.
my pa converse in chi n goh din say much.
ng did most of the talking.
i cried til i choke on my tears.
my pa ask me to go to the toilet.
walked past the corridor n evrybody stared as if i just kana frm the teachers n my pa.
but no...
just got fed up w sch work.
my pa said perhaps it was the studying environment bcos i was nvr tis lousy n they nvr had to worry abt my studies.
then ng said tt they'll c aft a yr to c if i was suited for a jc environment n if not i cld go to a poly.
i was like wth??!
then wad was i here for?
to waste a yr of my youth n b cooped up in tis freaking place just to enjoy the pressure n go crazy frm it??
i told ng tt even if i go poly i wld stil have to do independent learning n it's not as if the workload wld b any lesser.
so wake up!! a plea to all teachers out there...pls dun try to tink tt u understand the students bcos u dun.
aftall we were here for only half a yr n how much will u noe in half a yr?
[other than we did real lousy for the mid-yrs otherwise nthg abt us is reli made known to u]

***

big thanks to someone tt day.
not my pa.
although i reli wana tell him thank you personally for defending me. love him lots. =)
well....(drumroll)
the person was yangzi.
realise tt a true fren sometimes need not have to b ur best fren.
it's just tt when u're reli sad n u need someone to talk to, a true fren comes along n lends u a listening ear.
reli hated myself tt day for crying but yangzi stood there n did little things tt reli touches me.
she din reli said much but she just stood by me.
THANK YOU!!
big smiles =)))

***

the truth abt ng being bias is out.
he said he was not.
yz n me confronted him.
he told us that when a person dun chase aft another person for work is when he couldnt care less.
n he got reli pissed w "uh-hmm" so he reli din wana care any more.
we told him abt "uh-hmm" not wanting to contribute much for pw n he said he wld look into it.
ok so now i dun dislike ng as much.
=)
[i'm easily satisfied]

***

in the evening i went to visit my aunt at the hospital.
a new member has arrived in the family.
it's a girl!!
so now i have another playmate who's 17 yrs younger than me.
man...do i feel old or wad?
lol
*muacks to the little girl she was so cute!!
all babies r cute but she was the cutest.
haha.