[now waiting for my beloved inuyasha to show on central.]
=)
***
requested love from jiaxian: ok i miss u alot la! haha
hmm...miss the silly girl. so long nvr c her.
actually ok la cos stil got go swimming together k?!!
i spouting nonsense liao.
must have been the 'having-too-much-sleep-but-stil-very-tired' syndrome.
slept like a pig ydae.
went hm, had my dinner then went to slp at 830pm.
woke up at 1130 n i found out i haben bathe. lol [stinks]
aft my shower then at 1200am i went back to slp.
haha.
in total i slpt 9hrs. [piggy*oinks*]
***
even after promos, i cant rest.
my whole life revolves around the school.
so even if there are no exams,
there are bound to be school related events that will definitely tire me out.
so now it all about pw, open hse n cca.
song bo.[v long nvr use tis phrase le]
sian dao.
***
wadeva.
i shall have happy thots.
inuyasha gonna show liao.
byebye.
HAPPY thoughts come my way...
~
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Monday, October 9, 2006
i have adopted 2 pets!!
wee~
**puipui--[meaning fatfat in hokkien was named after my favourite syrian hamster, passed away during june in 2004 :(]
**xiaozhu--[luozhixiang!! =) *muacks*]
ok so my day was relatively good today.
but the chem lec kinda suck cos i cldnt b bothered to pay attention anymore.
slacking my time away.
hmm...so the chem lec kinda reaffirmed my decision.
well, actually i'm stil deciding.
what's reli holding me back would be that i'm afraid that i might not adapt to the poly environment.
shuacks. i'm so indecisive.
***
an abstract from my notebook:
[something which i wrote right before the last paper]
"But i know somewhere out there, there's still people, silently, cheering me on.
It's only that deafening pain screaming within me, blocks out everything.
Everything. Even myself.
Blame it not on me for my sorrows.
Blame it not on the school.
But on my stupidity and everyone else who contributed and made it worse.
Such hypocrisy.
Seeing her smile makes me shivers.
She knows nothing about me. She knows nothing at all. She pretended she knew.
But she did not. NOTHING AT ALL.
-EMPITINESS devours ME-
***
hmm...only a short part of it.
it was kinda like a suicidal note.
only that the abstract didnt exactly featured on that particular part.
so i said, "only till the parting of a student, then will the school be aware. only then, shall the schools slows it's pace."
lol.
thou shall be the student then.
so today a few of us were randomly chatting on which spot would be the best to 'jump'.
then we kinda concluded that the parade square would be the best cos that's where all the students and teachers must gather every morning.
until that day, we will forever be remembered(feared).
then i thot of another spot.
hang ourselves in the lec halls.
lt4 would be a good choice cos most of the students are there.
but i thot that lt5 was still the best becos the light there is usually dimmer n it gives the extra creepy effect.
hahaha.
so the scenario would be that b4 anyone enters the lec hall.
hang ourselves(at the centre of the hall, from the ceiling)
then when somebody comes in n switch on the lights.
lol. they'll be scared out of their wits.
***NOTE: do not choose secluded areas of the school becos eventually the school will cordoned off the area and then we will be forgotten.
***
lol. i need help.
counselling?
nah...not exactly sucidal la.
just thot of them for fun. hehex.
wee~
**puipui--[meaning fatfat in hokkien was named after my favourite syrian hamster, passed away during june in 2004 :(]
**xiaozhu--[luozhixiang!! =) *muacks*]
ok so my day was relatively good today.
but the chem lec kinda suck cos i cldnt b bothered to pay attention anymore.
slacking my time away.
hmm...so the chem lec kinda reaffirmed my decision.
well, actually i'm stil deciding.
what's reli holding me back would be that i'm afraid that i might not adapt to the poly environment.
shuacks. i'm so indecisive.
***
an abstract from my notebook:
[something which i wrote right before the last paper]
"But i know somewhere out there, there's still people, silently, cheering me on.
It's only that deafening pain screaming within me, blocks out everything.
Everything. Even myself.
Blame it not on me for my sorrows.
Blame it not on the school.
But on my stupidity and everyone else who contributed and made it worse.
Such hypocrisy.
Seeing her smile makes me shivers.
She knows nothing about me. She knows nothing at all. She pretended she knew.
But she did not. NOTHING AT ALL.
-EMPITINESS devours ME-
***
hmm...only a short part of it.
it was kinda like a suicidal note.
only that the abstract didnt exactly featured on that particular part.
so i said, "only till the parting of a student, then will the school be aware. only then, shall the schools slows it's pace."
lol.
thou shall be the student then.
so today a few of us were randomly chatting on which spot would be the best to 'jump'.
then we kinda concluded that the parade square would be the best cos that's where all the students and teachers must gather every morning.
until that day, we will forever be remembered(feared).
then i thot of another spot.
hang ourselves in the lec halls.
lt4 would be a good choice cos most of the students are there.
but i thot that lt5 was still the best becos the light there is usually dimmer n it gives the extra creepy effect.
hahaha.
so the scenario would be that b4 anyone enters the lec hall.
hang ourselves(at the centre of the hall, from the ceiling)
then when somebody comes in n switch on the lights.
lol. they'll be scared out of their wits.
***NOTE: do not choose secluded areas of the school becos eventually the school will cordoned off the area and then we will be forgotten.
***
lol. i need help.
counselling?
nah...not exactly sucidal la.
just thot of them for fun. hehex.
Sunday, October 8, 2006
exams r over.
wee?
nah.
i'll pass that.
no sense of satisfaction derived from end of exams.
n no sense of happiness.
bet evry1 is feeling so.
read some of their blogs n found out there r actually a lot of unhappy mjc ppl out there.
today at 10am(i was stil slping).
guess wad?
my ex-supervisor from ntuc called asked when my hols r starting.
in other words she wanted me back to work.
despite telling her tt i was unable to work til march(the peak periods due to cny)
she was stil willing to welcome me back.
she said she wanted ppl for nov n dec, n i was a good choice.
lol
i suppose tt's like the only place i can go to work wout a degree in hand.
she needed ppl. or perhaps she needed me.
lol i wldnt deny i was a pretty good worker there.
haha cos i was owaes doing the admin work.
though i m hired as a cashier.
[hey!! no fair i shud b receiving her pay cheque then ;p]
actually i dun intend to return to ntuc tho the ppl there r reli nice.
but i wish to find other place to work, if i reli do decide to work during the hols.
hmm...
if i were to work out a mindmap on 'future-routes- i-wld-take-in-future',
woah...it's gonna b 1 big mindmap.
cos currently it wld b either i go ntuc to work n go poly or not work n remain in mjc(tt is if i do not get kicked out)
life sucks when ur choices suck.
n now, my choices suck.
both of them.
all on extreme ends, so if i choose either 1 the outcome wld b v different?
ok let's analyse the situation...
***
[work at ntuc n go poly]
boon:
1. less stress
2. i get to study a course tt i wld reli like n want
3. i will be happier
4. my social circle is greatly widened[n there will b a higher possibility of being attached...lol]
bane:
1. lower chance of getting in uni?
2. i might b stuck at ntuc FOREVER!...[NOOOO...!!]
3. a hole in my wallet cos i will have to buy new clothes constantly[cos there is no more uniform in poly!]
conclusion:
despite the fact that there are more advantages if i were to work at ntuc n go poly. the thought of being stuck at ntuc forever really turns me off. [whoops. ;p sorry but i dun wan to be a cashier forever, makes my hands rough n dry]
therefore i conclude there is a very low possibility that these two will come together.
possibility of choice:10%
[work at ntuc n remain in mjc]
boon:
1. i get to work n earn money. ($.$)
2. i wont have to leave my frens n teachers ;)
3. higher chances of making it into uni
bane:
1. it's gonna b a tough struggle for me in the nxt few yrs to come.[ i have to work extra hard to catch up]
2. i will stil b stuck with doing things that i have no interest in
conclusion:
though it may sound reli nice tt i can get the cash n stil have a chance of making it into uni, i must stil rmb that comes with studying reli hard as well. so there is stil a chance of me not entering uni. n wad happens if i dont make it pass A levs? wad wld become of me then? return to ntuc? dont sound tempting anymore. yuck.
possibility of choice: 10%
[not work anywhere, stay hm n prepare for the oncoming battle during the nxt yr in mjc]
boon:
1. very high chance of becoming the nxt smart kid in town =)
2. very high chance of passing my A levs n make it into uni
3. i get to remain in mjc where everyone is
bane:
1. no more money :(
2. i'm the nxt mugger kid in town
3. higher chances of getting depression[hey! i'm alrdy a depressed kid]
4. my social circles will stil b v small...wahaha
conclusion:
although the disadvantages outweighs the advantages, it is stil very possible that i might eventually choose this option. because my final destination wld b uni:Architecture! =D
possibility of choice: 40%
[work somewhere else n go poly]
boon:
1. my social circle is greatly widen by the ppl from my workplace n learning institute
2. i get the money n i get the course i want
3. i m relaxed=>lower chances of getting depression
bane:
1. i become a slacker...lol[hmm...tis shud b under the boon section]
2. leaving all my frens in mjc
conclusion:
very very alluring. not much of anything to add, really.
possibility of choice: 40%
***
there ends my mindmap session of my future.
stay tune to more.
currently i only have these few choices.
if not where else can i go? LASELLE?
ooohh...i have thought of that.
in fact tt was my dream institute when i was in pri sch.
but then i realise the cost of going into the sch too high le la!!!
poor ppl like me cant afford!! O.o
nvm...
all is stil good.
***
oh yes...an added reminder to all those who felt that they have not worked hard enough.
it's ok. because it's over. no point griefing over wad is lost.
initially i thought i din work hard enough.
but then again...wad is 'working hard enough'?
i felt i have tried though i dont think it was my best.
well, there will nvr come a point when we wld feel that we have done our best.
wad's most impt tt we have done better than the last time, we have tried harder than the last time.
n tt was wad i did. =)
***
the sound of the waves crashing upon the shore conceals my cries of agony [silent screams]
wee?
nah.
i'll pass that.
no sense of satisfaction derived from end of exams.
n no sense of happiness.
bet evry1 is feeling so.
read some of their blogs n found out there r actually a lot of unhappy mjc ppl out there.
today at 10am(i was stil slping).
guess wad?
my ex-supervisor from ntuc called asked when my hols r starting.
in other words she wanted me back to work.
despite telling her tt i was unable to work til march(the peak periods due to cny)
she was stil willing to welcome me back.
she said she wanted ppl for nov n dec, n i was a good choice.
lol
i suppose tt's like the only place i can go to work wout a degree in hand.
she needed ppl. or perhaps she needed me.
lol i wldnt deny i was a pretty good worker there.
haha cos i was owaes doing the admin work.
though i m hired as a cashier.
[hey!! no fair i shud b receiving her pay cheque then ;p]
actually i dun intend to return to ntuc tho the ppl there r reli nice.
but i wish to find other place to work, if i reli do decide to work during the hols.
hmm...
if i were to work out a mindmap on 'future-routes- i-wld-take-in-future',
woah...it's gonna b 1 big mindmap.
cos currently it wld b either i go ntuc to work n go poly or not work n remain in mjc(tt is if i do not get kicked out)
life sucks when ur choices suck.
n now, my choices suck.
both of them.
all on extreme ends, so if i choose either 1 the outcome wld b v different?
ok let's analyse the situation...
***
[work at ntuc n go poly]
boon:
1. less stress
2. i get to study a course tt i wld reli like n want
3. i will be happier
4. my social circle is greatly widened[n there will b a higher possibility of being attached...lol]
bane:
1. lower chance of getting in uni?
2. i might b stuck at ntuc FOREVER!...[NOOOO...!!]
3. a hole in my wallet cos i will have to buy new clothes constantly[cos there is no more uniform in poly!]
conclusion:
despite the fact that there are more advantages if i were to work at ntuc n go poly. the thought of being stuck at ntuc forever really turns me off. [whoops. ;p sorry but i dun wan to be a cashier forever, makes my hands rough n dry]
therefore i conclude there is a very low possibility that these two will come together.
possibility of choice:10%
[work at ntuc n remain in mjc]
boon:
1. i get to work n earn money. ($.$)
2. i wont have to leave my frens n teachers ;)
3. higher chances of making it into uni
bane:
1. it's gonna b a tough struggle for me in the nxt few yrs to come.[ i have to work extra hard to catch up]
2. i will stil b stuck with doing things that i have no interest in
conclusion:
though it may sound reli nice tt i can get the cash n stil have a chance of making it into uni, i must stil rmb that comes with studying reli hard as well. so there is stil a chance of me not entering uni. n wad happens if i dont make it pass A levs? wad wld become of me then? return to ntuc? dont sound tempting anymore. yuck.
possibility of choice: 10%
[not work anywhere, stay hm n prepare for the oncoming battle during the nxt yr in mjc]
boon:
1. very high chance of becoming the nxt smart kid in town =)
2. very high chance of passing my A levs n make it into uni
3. i get to remain in mjc where everyone is
bane:
1. no more money :(
2. i'm the nxt mugger kid in town
3. higher chances of getting depression[hey! i'm alrdy a depressed kid]
4. my social circles will stil b v small...wahaha
conclusion:
although the disadvantages outweighs the advantages, it is stil very possible that i might eventually choose this option. because my final destination wld b uni:Architecture! =D
possibility of choice: 40%
[work somewhere else n go poly]
boon:
1. my social circle is greatly widen by the ppl from my workplace n learning institute
2. i get the money n i get the course i want
3. i m relaxed=>lower chances of getting depression
bane:
1. i become a slacker...lol[hmm...tis shud b under the boon section]
2. leaving all my frens in mjc
conclusion:
very very alluring. not much of anything to add, really.
possibility of choice: 40%
***
there ends my mindmap session of my future.
stay tune to more.
currently i only have these few choices.
if not where else can i go? LASELLE?
ooohh...i have thought of that.
in fact tt was my dream institute when i was in pri sch.
but then i realise the cost of going into the sch too high le la!!!
poor ppl like me cant afford!! O.o
nvm...
all is stil good.
***
oh yes...an added reminder to all those who felt that they have not worked hard enough.
it's ok. because it's over. no point griefing over wad is lost.
initially i thought i din work hard enough.
but then again...wad is 'working hard enough'?
i felt i have tried though i dont think it was my best.
well, there will nvr come a point when we wld feel that we have done our best.
wad's most impt tt we have done better than the last time, we have tried harder than the last time.
n tt was wad i did. =)
***
the sound of the waves crashing upon the shore conceals my cries of agony [silent screams]
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
can anybody pass me a 'shut-me-up' pill pls?
need it desperately...
need to get a zipper so i wont whine so much.
***
SHUT ME UP!!!
***
happy thoughts come my way.
need to brighten up.
just slacking my days away.
so much to do, yet so little time. (derived from "batman-the movie" by poison ivy)
find me a wall so i can smash my head into it,
so i can get a clear mind to work and study.
my mind is totally saturated from wadeva there is from pri sch to sec sch.
out of memory space.
darn.
***
shudnt be needing a 'shut-me-up' pill.
now i need a bigger memory space.
10gb? nah...
i need UNLIMITED memory space.
i need to plug in as many thumbdrives or sd memory cards into my head.
***
reach sch at 620am today. just to hand in econs essay
saw a shooting star along my way to the busstop.
lucky-me.
=D
made a wish.
betting everything on a burning rock.
sch was relatively good today.
got an A for my math summary.
yay.
but the colours are just so overwhelming.
my mum said tt it must have been the teacher surrendered while trying to read my summary so he had to give an A.
lol. sorry la.
***
doing eom now.
actually haben start.
i shud start le la.
bye. =)
need it desperately...
need to get a zipper so i wont whine so much.
***
SHUT ME UP!!!
***
happy thoughts come my way.
need to brighten up.
just slacking my days away.
so much to do, yet so little time. (derived from "batman-the movie" by poison ivy)
find me a wall so i can smash my head into it,
so i can get a clear mind to work and study.
my mind is totally saturated from wadeva there is from pri sch to sec sch.
out of memory space.
darn.
***
shudnt be needing a 'shut-me-up' pill.
now i need a bigger memory space.
10gb? nah...
i need UNLIMITED memory space.
i need to plug in as many thumbdrives or sd memory cards into my head.
***
reach sch at 620am today. just to hand in econs essay
saw a shooting star along my way to the busstop.
lucky-me.
=D
made a wish.
betting everything on a burning rock.
sch was relatively good today.
got an A for my math summary.
yay.
but the colours are just so overwhelming.
my mum said tt it must have been the teacher surrendered while trying to read my summary so he had to give an A.
lol. sorry la.
***
doing eom now.
actually haben start.
i shud start le la.
bye. =)
Saturday, September 9, 2006
the week is gonna end.
but wad have i done.
haben been hearing frm my frens for quite some time.
must have been mugging hard at hm.
watching tv the whole day.==>me
i can tell u all the tv timeslots for almost every channel.
[no joke.]
tv-addict.
cant cure it.
sorry mum.
lol
smashing the tv wun cure me i tink.
there must b some tv temptation radio active waves emmiting from the tv constantly cos i cant seem to sit in my room for a sec just to study.
the 'waves' kinda 'pull' me out n i'll b watching tv agn.
shucks.
will anybody gimme a hard knock on the head??
i mean a reli hard 1.
i tink the mid-yrs gave me a big n hard knock.
but not exactly lasting enuf.
became a mugger only for a short period of time n i reverted back into my old ways aft tt.
lol.
lousy me.
Grr...
cant bring myself to lie, saying mugging is fun.
cos it totally sucks.
regretted my choice in my combi.
shud have chosen an easier 1.
cos like wad archi has to do w biology???
or even chemistry???
i dun even have to noe the chemical formula for cement!
[hilarious]
n it will b as if i wld need differentiation when i draft out the blueprint of a landmark.
lol.
[laughing my head off]
yucks.
so not motivated to study.
a lot of news abt ppl jumping off buildings recently.
[erm...ok mayb sometime ago, not exactly so recent]
perhaps i shud follow suit.
i'm entertaining stupid thots agn.
life is still good la hor??
as i'm typing my new entry, i have already wasted almost half an hr of studying time.
lol.
***
off to do my 4th draft of eom.
take care muggers.
drink more water ;D
but wad have i done.
haben been hearing frm my frens for quite some time.
must have been mugging hard at hm.
watching tv the whole day.==>me
i can tell u all the tv timeslots for almost every channel.
[no joke.]
tv-addict.
cant cure it.
sorry mum.
lol
smashing the tv wun cure me i tink.
there must b some tv temptation radio active waves emmiting from the tv constantly cos i cant seem to sit in my room for a sec just to study.
the 'waves' kinda 'pull' me out n i'll b watching tv agn.
shucks.
will anybody gimme a hard knock on the head??
i mean a reli hard 1.
i tink the mid-yrs gave me a big n hard knock.
but not exactly lasting enuf.
became a mugger only for a short period of time n i reverted back into my old ways aft tt.
lol.
lousy me.
Grr...
cant bring myself to lie, saying mugging is fun.
cos it totally sucks.
regretted my choice in my combi.
shud have chosen an easier 1.
cos like wad archi has to do w biology???
or even chemistry???
i dun even have to noe the chemical formula for cement!
[hilarious]
n it will b as if i wld need differentiation when i draft out the blueprint of a landmark.
lol.
[laughing my head off]
yucks.
so not motivated to study.
a lot of news abt ppl jumping off buildings recently.
[erm...ok mayb sometime ago, not exactly so recent]
perhaps i shud follow suit.
i'm entertaining stupid thots agn.
life is still good la hor??
as i'm typing my new entry, i have already wasted almost half an hr of studying time.
lol.
***
off to do my 4th draft of eom.
take care muggers.
drink more water ;D
Sunday, September 3, 2006
at last i manage to start in.
today went swimming w jx, karen n ser.
v long nvr c jx le.
lol. happy bday to me.
1 week past le.
i m 17!
i m old.
3 yrs later n i will hit 20.
then in another 10 yrs i will b 30.
omg.
o.o
lao le la!
promos r coming.
i wan to start but i duno where to.
too much things tt i wish to do but r eventually left undone.
cos there r so many qns.
no life at all.
owaes blog abt sch.
hmm...
mayb another happening event is the day when almost the whole class stayed to do the tshirts n we stayed till 12midnight.
then liwen's papa send us hm.
we sat at the back of the lorry.
so happening.
got me, ser, yangzi, liwen n jianrong.
so cool la.
haha.
thanks to liwen n her pa!
THANK YOU!
then on teacher celeb day, we had it in the sch hall due to bad weather.
aft tt we went to tm to watch 'the devil wears prada'
it was a good show.
3.5 stars out of 5.
it's only the ending which is reli abrupt.
nevertheless, stil a good show.
anna hathaway so chio-ed.
!!! love her dress sense.
wee...
aft the movie i was v tired so became v ap then went hm lor.
haha. no life.
today went swimming w jx, karen n ser.
v long nvr c jx le.
lol. happy bday to me.
1 week past le.
i m 17!
i m old.
3 yrs later n i will hit 20.
then in another 10 yrs i will b 30.
omg.
o.o
lao le la!
promos r coming.
i wan to start but i duno where to.
too much things tt i wish to do but r eventually left undone.
cos there r so many qns.
no life at all.
owaes blog abt sch.
hmm...
mayb another happening event is the day when almost the whole class stayed to do the tshirts n we stayed till 12midnight.
then liwen's papa send us hm.
we sat at the back of the lorry.
so happening.
got me, ser, yangzi, liwen n jianrong.
so cool la.
haha.
thanks to liwen n her pa!
THANK YOU!
then on teacher celeb day, we had it in the sch hall due to bad weather.
aft tt we went to tm to watch 'the devil wears prada'
it was a good show.
3.5 stars out of 5.
it's only the ending which is reli abrupt.
nevertheless, stil a good show.
anna hathaway so chio-ed.
!!! love her dress sense.
wee...
aft the movie i was v tired so became v ap then went hm lor.
haha. no life.
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